I am never sure what or what not is proper to post in a blog, but this is what’s on my mind. Once again I am living one moment at a time. My cat has a (likely) terminal condition. I am caring for her. Meanwhile life goes on.
We are in the early stages of this (an oral tumor) and she is acting quite normal. My cat is eating and drinking on her own, has a good appetite, trilling, and cuddling with the others. In short, she is acting normal. Normal makes me insanely happy. I’ve been down this road before, but I am [trying] not to anticipate. I can’t know anything. I can only know now.
Listening to my mind-chatter this morning, I was reminded of a great teacher of mine. He once demonstrated that it is impossible to “try” to do something. You can only do it, or not. So I will not say to myself that I am “trying” to live in the moment. I will say to myself that I am living in the moment. And that’s what I’m doing.