Doors are opening. Doors are closing. Three of my books are going out of print. A long time freelance job is going away. I’m seeing 11:11, 1111, 111, and 11 all over the place, many times daily.
(Or, as my teachers said in life coaching training, “taa daa!” It’s a way to fearlessly face change, whether it’s stinky or great or both. It’s all in the perspective you choose to take.)
It’s time to wake up.
Mostly, what this tells me about myself is that I am stubborn (both a great and not-so-great trait) and that I can get too attached to my stories and my assumptions. And by stories, I mean my beliefs about myself.
First of all, the books going out of print (Driving with Cats, The Great Purr, and Voice Lessons) is not a bad thing. In fact, I’m excited about it. All rights revert to me, and I can reproduce the books however I want. And I have inventory now. I do need to make some fast decisions about how to allocate resources to reproduce the books and in what order.
I stubbornly resisted self publishing for years. And I will still submit new material (I am, now) to traditional publishers. I want a good publisher to love my work. I want to be vetted by the best. But….there may be situations where I can do a better job (and do better for myself) on my own.
Question, Then Take Action
These are the questions I’m asking myself as I challenge my stories:
- Am I a freelancer or an entrepreneur?
- Am I a starving artist or a super successful creative person?
- Do I believe in myself enough to bring my greatest value to the world?
What are the stories that are keeping you stuck? Which stories serve you, and which stories need to go or to be changed?