Blogging may be light this week, due to intensive care taking duties at home. And on that topic, here are some thoughts about care taking:
In my household right now, we’re undertaking some intense and emotional care taking responsibilities. An older pet may be in his last days. I’ve always been of the opinion that these tough experiences hold lessons. Last night my husband asked me what the lessons are from this experience.
“I don’t know,” I sighed.
“You’re not tired enough, yet,” he said.
I thought that was interesting. I’m plenty tired, but I guess I have to be pretty darn tired, almost broken down, to get out of my own way. It has happened to me before — when a parent died; when life threw other chaos my way. I’m getting there, now, I’m sure.
Someday I’ll look back at this experience and see the big lesson — maybe. Or maybe not. In the meantime I’m slogging through, being human, ego and all. I’m also enjoying the snippets of moments when I do get out of my way: loving my cat, my cat loving me, treasuring even the intense rushes of grief — because it’s really all about love.